Posting Time!

I know, I know, I have been slacking majorly on all things related to posting, on this one and the xf verse o' da days. SO sorry. Please forgive me. Actually, I don't need your forgiveness I have God's! j/k well, I do, but not that I don't need anyone elses...*is confusing self* Lets see, I actually do have stuff to talk about. Oh, I have a little venting to do too. So, I was in english with The Crazy Teacher, yup, that's her name. We were talking about wars and dying or something, I don't member, but she made the comment, almost like it was wrong, that more lives have been lost in the name of God than all the other wars combined. True or not, so what!? Can you think of any reason more worthy of giving your life than God? I sure can't! I wanted to jump out of my seat and say all that, but because of my passive nature, I refrained. Had one of my peers said that, I would have, maybe, but not The Crazy Teacher. She bashes christianity all the time, mainly catholocism, which is still a denomination of christianity, so therefore, she's still bashing christianity. GRRR. It erks me! But then I learned something I found quite interesting and will make you all 10x smarter...or seem smarter....hmmm. Anyway, Merlin, the wizard in the Arthurian Legends was actually created by a monk! Crazy huh? This magical character was created by a catholic monk. Why you ask? Because during the time these legends were constructed the world, well England, was in an inbetween time, inbetween paganism and christianity. Monks were the only ones who could write and were therefore the ones who wrote all these ancient tales down on paper. They could change it anyway they wanted to, so they added Christianity to the stories (yay, go monks!) but also kept some pagan stuff in them so as not to scare away the new found Christians still holding on the their last bit of paganism. Did anyone already know that? Liars!
Youth group went well. Worship went pretty good I think. Lately Luke's messages have been applying to me so much, its freaky! Its like he's reading my mind and talking about it...*suspicous look for Luke* No, its actually really awesome because I need that perspective on that stuff. I'm always on that spriitual high Luke was talking about wednesday after a retreat thing and I always think, this time it'll be different, but it never is. I always start out real strong, then I kind of taper off, and feel guilty for losing my enthusiasm so I just stop trying, thinking it pointless because I'm just going through the motions. So I'm glad Luke addressed that for me. Thanks Luke!
Last night I had worship practice. Eric is awesome! He is helping me so much, especially with harmony, since I'm horrible at it! So I get to lead worship on sunday *is freaked out beyond compare* I really am kind of worried, its a little intimidating. So, pray about that..unless of course you want me to mess up so you can have a good laugh...mean people! j/k
I finally finished my application to William Jewell college! YAY!!! Now I have CSU and KU to work on. *sigh* one down, two to go. Or so I thought. Then I get this call from MCC, whom I have expressed an interest in before when I was planning on going to KState and MCC. I told them I was no longer interested....but the more I thought about it, the more I realized I still wasn't sure. I had always planned on going to a Christian college, at least as a dual enrollee. Not only to get a good, solid, Christian education but also to meet other Christians. I'm only going to marry a Chrisitian so where better to find a nice Christian boy to marry than in a Christian college? I don't know. If I go to William Jewell, its no big deal. It isnt a christian college, persay, but the beliefs of the college are baptist and religion is a major offered. If I go to CSU...total party school. What if I can't find any Christians? Where am I going to meet a nice Christian boy to marry!? I know, I WAY over think everything! But...I think Christmas time always makes me think about love and all that jazz (yes, I know, it seems like I think about it all the time, but not entirely true.) I did, about 2 months ago, after that lesson we had on dating, decide that I was going to abandon my thoughts of missionary dating that I've always wanted to do. I was always attracted to those guys that weren't christians but seemed to have potential if given the right influence. No more! I told my friends about this decision and they told me I was being close minded and thought it was a crazy, drastic thing to do but...I don't. I'm glad I decided that. Only Christian boys now! They're better anyway! Besides dating can lead to marriage right? Don't want to fall for a non-christian and then have to tell him "sorry dude, you're not a christian, I can't marry you!" I'm rambling. Love is complicated. Hard to discuss, especially not knowing who is going to read this and how they might take it. But my outlook on love has improved greatly since my last post about it. But I've been in a great mood lately, so its fitting. Not sure why I've been in a great mood lately...probably because I saw Monty Python and now I know what everyone's talking about! NEEE! Yup, that must be it. Ok, I'm out, I'll try and keep up on this thing a little better...key word TRY!